so she dances

2010-06-15T17:50:00.001+08:00

torturrre

2010-06-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

hahahaha
hahahaha

not being able to express properly in times when it is needed most is one of my weakness.

not being able to let go, is another.

being the bigger person is what ive been good at
and because of that,
its what i have become forever, by default.

GOD?

2010-06-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

i have alot of things to gripe about today.

1) school librarian.
I am telling you, she hates me.
she appears wherever i go, SHE GIVES ME THE LOOOOK...okay like shes super rude and arrogant when she talks to me. and im like err i dont even wanna talk to u in the first place so dont even give me that tone when you do. she keeps wanting me to do sth wrong!! its like she cant believe i spent an entire day in the library without doing sth wrong and she doesnt feel shiok if she cant scold me U KNOW even when i was just checking out the journals she WAS STANDING BEHIND ME AND SCRUTINISING ME!!!! like what, im gna heck into the library borrowing system and heck it because it is my life's desire to always do that?
i bet if i start a petition to get her fired everyone in school will sign it lor. but im obviously not going to do that because that is a very mean thing to do....

2) not getting what i want
i think its the whole pms thing.
and not getting what i want during this period of time makes me feel like being a bitch.

I DONT HAVE ANY ICE CREAM AT HOME.. and i want ben and jerry's because there is a promotion for 2 pints now but i dont have any:( i need cookie affair and strawberry cheesecake badly. i think im actually salivating.=="
I also cannot watch glee at home. ONE HOUR... for ONE WEEk is all i ask for, but NOOOOOOOO people who watch serials cannot give up one episode.
=(

3) the dad.
i cannot stand the way he talks i cannot stand how hes such a baby i cannot stand how he is so selfish i cannot stand how he is insensitive i cannot stand him.

i cannot stand the entire house, staying in the house awake for more than 3 hours gives me a headache and the hugest urge to walk out of the door and enjoy life outside.
i force myself to sleep longer so that i dont have to be awake for too long at home but that just makes my headache worse.

i think i need a new house.
=="

i cant get to sleep but i want to.

just wanna go somewhere else.=(

2010-06-02T20:51:00.003+08:00

honor your parents yeah.
the father makes it really really hard.

2010-05-22T02:34:00.002+08:00

pathetic.

2010-05-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

how amazing how God can turn a perfectly normal day into one of meaning.

i love how i can talk to a friend and the conversation turns from simply chatter to one about the future, about church and God without being awkward.

i've just been thinking so much recently.
should i quit my job, to actually engage myself in some social services where i can prepare myself for the work of God. but if i quit my job... then finance would be a problem.. a big big problem.

but thats just the least of it.

after my diploma, i may/may not want to stay in ech after all.
child psych? social services?

and then there's always the issue close to the heart.

in this world there are so many things
that need the change that only Your love can bring.

2010-05-02T17:40:00.002+08:00

hello

all through pri to sec sch 've been so mindful of people, what they think and blahblahblah.
never stood up for myself. never went up to someone to say things i wanted to say.

to me it has never been the quantity of time spent with people, but the quality.
who are my best friends?
they're not the ones i meet every week, neither are they the ones i talk to most often.
they're the ones who i meet up with like only a few times a year or less or even never.
they're the ones that everytime i walk away after meeting them, the conversation we had still stays with me.

so apologies to those who think that i do not care because i do not make the effort to talk.
or to meet.
that's the way i'm wired, and if it clashes with your love language, then what can i say right.

what i'm not going to apologise for is for the way you are trying to make me feel.
(you) is not directed to a specific one person.

i had hell in pri and sec sch.
and i had just about hell enough of it.

dont play games.

this year is a crucial year
in more ways than one.

i will not let things like that from the past to come back and destroy whatever i've built.

if i have done my part, i have done it.
the choice is all your's.

this is something i have been saying over and over again
if you want to share, then i'm all ears.
if you dont want to share, then i'm fine with that too.
if you simply want attention, im sorry to say that thats not what you'll get.

hmm a dozen people are going through my head as i type this and if you think you are one of them, know that i am not pointing a finger at you but simply to for once, make my feelings known.

2010-04-29T22:39:00.000+08:00

hollywood singers and mainstream artistes involved in satanism.
scaryyyyyyy.=((

2010-04-21T20:16:00.002+08:00

saw this on camerafilmroll.

have to say, i am totally intrigued!

hehehe, nice thing to try with my soso long hair now, but how many people would kill me? haha.

2010-04-20T13:20:00.002+08:00

I will go, wherever You lead me I will follow.

I thank God for the past two days.
For being so real and near to me when I needed Him so much.

The closer I am to You, the lesser the things of the world seem to matter.
cos being in Your presence is better than what the world could ever offer and right now I can't wait to get home and have a time of worship.

i know things wont be easy,
i know the attack of the enemy is alr onto me and my family but
God will make a way when there seems to be no way.

2010-04-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

sometimes

its good to just be alone to recharge.
now i understand what it means to be sooo tired, facing a big group of people just puts you off.

school tmr!
not looking forward to studying, but yes to the lovely six princesses(:

2010-04-18T00:56:00.002+08:00

haahah work was on the better end today.
i finally found out what my pay is.. and its either six or six fifty wooohooo haahha.
byebye you stinkin 4.50/hr rate.

hopefully when school starts i will be more constant in giving my schedule lolol.

another thing..
3 more months till b goes to the armyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

okay la 3 months is quite long.. or short.. i dont know what to think hahaha in my head it's just 3 more months 3 more months 3 more months

aye whatever it is
im just thankful to have you
cos it seems like with everything happening with everyone blahblahblah i'm just glad that we're tight.(:

lots to do tmr, buhbyeee.

2010-04-16T11:56:00.002+08:00

i know this space is dead but i just needed to rant

I CANNOT STAND the person who stays in the same house as me and calls himself my father.

sndklfsdofkimnsdlkfjapkdasldmoqijepowkskjfoijdfmbkdf

he is a classic example of parents who think they are always right but THEY ARE NOT THEY ARE ACTUALLY LIKE ALMOST ALWAYS WRONG AND EXPECT PPL TO DO THIS AND THAT WHEN THEY THEMSELVES CANNNNOTTTTTT...

see this is why i need an atm card.
so he can just put money in and i get my allowance without having to communicate.

simple thing like ASKING YOU WHAT TIME YOU COMING BACK ALSO KENA.

and please, im not the only one who thinks like that, YOUR WIFE IS ANOTHER.

fnasfdlsjfpadkadjkpakdl;askdsad

cannot.stay.at.home.for.more.than.1.day
or i will explode.

=(((

2010-03-04T00:56:00.003+08:00

"i still love you nothing changes the feeling towards you but it just got stronger...."
its nice when he says it outright yeah.

2010-02-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

SHOPPING TODAY WOOHHOO

think was quite obvious i was like quite, ok, very upset with birthday plans soon to become no birthday plan at all situation now....
so went to 313 and suntec to shop

spent a total of over 700 bucks.
bought 25 items altogether, of which 13 belong to me(:

finally got to eat tcc again, a constant craving whenever i walk past tcc..
love chocolate indulgence, my goodness this is one dish that is instant cheer up man.

see clar, when i go to f21 with my mom, its different when i go with you.
haha i picked out four items, and bought all four hahahah.

oh downer was that all the things i saw the last time and wanted.. HAVE BEEN REPLACED SO UPSET LOR WAH LAO THAT NICE NECKLACE FROM ACCESSORIZE IS GOONEEE..
and so is the nice bag
and nice top
aiyah u know what THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS IMPULSIVE SHOPPING.
u see something u better just go and buy it before it disappears and u will regret I TELL YOU YOU WILL REGRET.
so this is very awesome advice, NO SUCH THING AS IMPULSE BUY.
its good or not so good.
OKAY someone please tell me that next time i wanna buy sth but stop to consider.

or maybe its just that stock changing sucks.

hmms yeah and then cos everywhere was so crowded i managed to get away with buying some dresses without showing the mom
ahhaha she kinda flipped when she saw them but OH WELLL IT'S BOUGHT ALR HAHAHAHA.

note: f21 at 313 should have more than one dressing room at every level. it is NOT enough.

ohoh i saw an awesome maxi dress today.......
unfortunately i am not fat enough to wear it.

so ironic right
sometimes we wish were thinner to wear sth and other times we wish we had a lil more meat to fit into some clothes.

well alot of what i bought today does not permit me to have a tum tum so please do not gain weight during this period okay jolyn loh.

(:

2010-02-27T00:46:00.002+08:00

hahah AFTER YEAR ONE..
everything kinda sucks

ahhaa
my holiday has just become.. a non-holiday
i dont even have time to work, so yay i am gonna have a reputation as a slack scoopy.

urh yeah and my awesome hsm birthday plan seems to be going down the drain

well commitment is commitment. sacrifices are sacrifices.

oooooohhhhhhhhhhh give me the love and the patience for people because i am losing it.

2010-02-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

lol you know what i just realised
as much as i try to be super practical and all

i am not.

i adore romance.
yup i do.
sappy ol' can i puke now romance.

oh man how nice it must be to be romanced, haha.
okay i know i sound stupid.
but after watching the movie i feel like im floating on a fluffy cloud that is all about love and ignorant of reality.
(:

HAHAHAHHAA okay, im making you sick i know.

2010-02-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

i typed a whole lot of stuff that i deleted and it shall go into the private one.
all i can say is

the problem with the people you love is that you keep giving them chances.
and they know it.

2010-02-12T11:12:00.002+08:00

=(

hate flash and dreamweaver
but i daresay i have made some personal step forward by actually doing a flash clip and eportfolio last night.
slept around four plus, five.
woke up at eight.
haha have been up ever since.
im dying to go home and shit.
=(((

2010-02-10T23:41:00.002+08:00

=((

flash sucks.
i am such a flash idiot.
i have no idea how to create a flash movie AT ALL.
EVEN A SIMPLE ONE WITH PICTURES.
I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW WHY WHATEVER I DO COMES OUT WRONG FLASH SUCKS.
WHO INVENTED ALL THE STUPID CS4 SHIATT EVERYTHING INSIDE IS CRAP AND ONLY CAUSES ME MORE MISERY.

why am i even doing an assignment that is for ENGINEERING PEEPS ONLY!?!??!
and why is the ita credit points A FULL FREAKING FOUR?!
crazy or what, such a stupid module holds so much weightage.

i hate flash.
i hate the teacher who created this assignment.
I HATE FLASH, DREAMWEAVER AND ALL THE NERDS WHO KNOW HOW TO OPERATE THIS DUMB THING.
correction.
if you are a nerd who is willing to help me do the assignment, then i dont hate you.

SCREW ITA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-08T14:00:00.003+08:00

weekend was very well spent with the family.
it was just what i needed.(:

beautiful scenery, swimming, fantabulous dinner, great hotel room with the cutest babies!
i had a whole day with kate where she wanted noone to carry her.... but ME(:
aint that great haha but my arms were aching and my sis said thats cos im carrying two freakin bowling balls.
hurrah for stronger arms.

and david and cherise were in awesome moods, big eyes and cute cheeks, how to resist!

i haven been to sentosa i'd forgotten how awesome it is.
cant wait to go back sooon!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-03T22:13:00.003+08:00

oh whoopeedoo it's that time again.
when i start to overthink.. and think melancholic thoughts.

why are there so many morons to face?
they come in all shapes and sizes.
and all have their little ways of getting under my skin and annoying me to the max.
why do the younger ones seem to be getting worse and worse?
when i look at them i just feel lucky that im not part of that generation.
and sad that this is how the future's gonna be.
people who have no respect for authority.
people who seem to think that life is all about the partying, and fun.
people who seem to be lacking purpose.
hello if you are one of these people, do try to prove me wrong.

why are there times when you are so certain, but yet when you take a step back, it doesnt seem so sure anymore?

why are there always sacrifices to make?

the hollydays are coming, the hollydays are coming, oh please give me a life and let me live that life when it comes.
but before that, let me have confidence in the two exams which i never paid attention to in class this whole sem.

and let me be stable.
i wanna be able to deal with everything that comes my way.

2010-02-01T15:40:00.002+08:00

gotta love the cell with the two bro Js.(:

i know we're all wearing pink, but it wasnt my idea to go all bimbo pink!

kate is back in singapore,

i am clamoring to get her attention and win her heart.

hahaha

2010-01-25T13:45:00.001+08:00

sorry sorry, i had to post this.

no pictures of the two younger bad boys, but mark salling should suffice(:

2010-01-25T13:35:00.002+08:00

1)
i never thought i'd say this, but i think i'm gonna miss fieldprac.
i love the kids, and as much as i hate planning their lessons, it's so enjoyable teaching them!!
i think i learnt alot in this year's f.p, and my mentor is really so nice.
she gave each of us f.p mates a notebook with like a personal card inside, and you know, it's the small things that count.
and i finally got to eat the yummy things that the children eat before i left. hahaha.
think im gna go and help out in their cny celebrations, i already miss them.lol.<33333

2)
point 1 led me to point 2, WHICH IS I HAVE A SERIOUS WEAKNESS FOR BAD BOY LOOKS HAHAHA.

there is this boy in my class, who is like chubby, but not too chubby, so its just nice, and he has such a bad boy face!!! like the, aye, im cool, you're not, so dont come near me. but when he smiles...........
WOOOHOOOOOO hahahahaha cuteness to the max.
and he's like all the girls' favorite lor, and i was saying that i want my son to be like that next time.
LADY KILLER hahahaha. like got girls keep coming to sit next to him then he just moves away with an irritated look on his face hahahahahahah. and he's only 3 years plus can you believe it!!!! please please please let my son be so cute next time. then nobody will bear to scold him heheheh.

okay then today i just noticed another cute bad boy, but even younger!!
2 years plus, hahaha. his hair is like.. super ahbeng, but its so cute on him!! and he got like the cheeky face ah, hahahaha gosh where do these cute bad boys come from???!?!??!?

and the last on my list is MARK SALLING; PUCK from GLEE!
he makes the mohawk look so gooood, and his dreammmmmmy eyes....ok so hes abit of a jerk in the show, but whatever. i spent 20 mins trying to convince my mom that he was cute, but she doesnt share my taste for bad boys hahahaha.
=((

aites, i just wanted to gush about the cute boys la, hahah byebye.

2010-01-03T21:41:00.003+08:00

i realised alot of things today.

1) i cannot work alone.
ever since noelle left my place, i cant really concentrate on my tasks, urgh.
2) i havent had a great emo depression era in my life yet!
meaning, been through ups and downs, but i havent went into the DARK AGES kinda thingy you know.
that's good man! hahaha. i hope whatever would cause it wont come, cos i like being able to bounce back in life fast.(:
3) noelle is a great friend that i defnitely wanna keep for life.
she is the only one who makes me think about the past, the present, the future.
and it's good, because if i didnt think about all that, i would be another mindless 18 going on 19 youth passing through life.
and she keeps me sensible!
and i bet thats why my mama loves her too.<333
4) while i make alot of bad choices, i seem to have low tolerance when other people make bad choices.
shrugs.

allllll i can say issssss
listen to your momma when she tells you things.
there is wisdom is her words, that you might not realise until much later.
sometimes, it is in time, sometimes it is too late.
then u want to slap yourself on her behalf.hahaha.

so in any case,
LISTEN TO YOUR MOMMA WHEN SHE TALKS.

2010-01-03T00:20:00.002+08:00

HELLO.
2010 doesnt feel like a new year thanks to stupid assignments.
=((

for new year, they should totally ban assignments and all form of stress for ONE WHOLE MONTH.

but my new year eve and new years day was great.
watchnight service, and then a group of us went walking around singapore HAHAHA.
stupid train left without us so ended up walking from china town to esplanade to city hall.
but i had lotsa fun nevertheless(:
AND I AM SO GOOD AT STAYING UP OVERNIGHT HAHAH.:DD

okay anyway am dead tired now.
work was.. alright.
i guess i'll never get certain people, but im tired of trying to accommodate.
thats the way you wanna be then so be it.
i shouldnt have to get all uptight and like OMGOMG WHY YOU TREAT ME LIKE THAT kinda mode.

and cell starts 8.30 am tmr.
good luck jo.

2010-01-01T14:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRr

hahaha bye bye 2009, hello 2010~

i is proud of myself for not sleeeping the whole night hahaha
didnt even make it to vivo in the end, thanks to stupid ass train which was delayed
so ended up at the most unlikely place..... cheenatown.
then we began our exercise regime of walking allllllllll the way to the esplanade before settling down at 4am hahahahahha.

then before everyone started sleeping again we got up and walked to rc!
reached home around nine plus.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
so yeah its 3pm, i just woke up, with a splitting headache.

nevertheless, enjoyed last night tremendously!
iffffff only i can do that more often whooopeeeeeeeee

2009-12-25T21:50:00.002+08:00

Blessed Christmas everybody!

this christmas was definitely meaningful.(:
pictures will be up when uploaded.
eve was spent at my godparent's house, which was awesome.
we opened our presents only at 0ne am..
and then cos my granny had a hongkong drama serial for her present, we happily opened it and watched it..
and as you may have guessed, we watched until 4 plus am..
and i woke up at 7am....
lol.
thank God for godfathers who are more than willing to driveeee me to church!:D

Christmas was spent at church, where i wanna thank everyone for your well wishes and presents and cards!
hahahhah and i resent the fact that bimbo people give out bimbotic gifts. i do not think nail polish is bimbotic!
After that, headed to my bro's house where reubs got to meet my family.. like finally.

hahahaha he was very very very scared,
but i think it went well!

bro and sis-in-law did quite alot of talking with both of us..
basically the same things that alot of ppl have spoken about to both of us..
but my bro and SIL can totally make it sound so interesting, and i just wanted to sit there and listen to them the whole night hahahaha.
thank God for lovely brothers and SILs who care and so totally rock at this kinda stuff hahahaha.

got to play with a very happy Cherise and David today too(:

so i am very happy.

it was quite a funny christmas, weird cos i didnt feel super christmassy,
but it was definitely meaningful.

sometimes, to have a relationship isnt all about the lovey dovey moments and stuff,
but it's about knowing that the other partner is learning, growing, and working together to what God has called both of us, as individuals, to be.

and lastly,
Happy Birthday Jesus.
there's so much to thank You for, I don't know where to start.
but i love You.

2009-12-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

LOL noone else can wear this and look as good man HAHAHA.

ano noone else can do free labour for me one whole week w/o complaints. hahaha.

honestly, this two years wouldnt have been possible without God.

and i thank God for constantly reminding us who and where He is in our relationship.

because having God is what makes everything different from the rest of the world.

2009-12-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

recent photos:

granny's birthday

the serious and solemn group who likes to scrunch and fold toilet paper. hahaha.

the night bus mate who luckily with me or i would have gone crazy in that 7 hour ride.

camp ignormous, was quite different from the other camps.

lol.

i think i got alot more rest in the camp, hahaha.

but also kinda learnt that there are many things in your walk with God that you gotta do it yourself and not rely on others(:

yup.

this camp also marked b and mine 2nd year tgt.

to be honest, the best anni. present was to hear you talk about your calling and purpose in God.

and i pray that this camp will consume both of us and we'll really work to where God wants us to be.

<3333

2009-12-13T19:55:00.004+08:00

more school photos!

lol i look like a breakdancer right HAHAA

dora is so sporting to be the browner-than-ever tofu woman!

noone gave that to me, i'm just acting happy.

this is dora's wildest dream.

and my bigass face for all to remember(:

this was the day we went shopping before lesson.

clar's workplace, nicholas had a sale, and i got a toga top for only 25 bucks!

and my mom didnt say anything about it, so awesome awesome!

i told alanna to take a full length photo because i looked slimmer that way lol.

if it wasn't for FIELD PRACTICUM TMR,

i would be so so looking forward to CAMP IGNORMOUS!

and stupid teachers who dont keep their promises to upload e-learning by the weekend.

how am i supposed to do my work now?!

idiots.

i am not gna bring my lappy to camp, its so heavy, and i know im gna be too spaced out.

staying at home today was a good idea.

i feel a whole lot better than i did last night and in the morning.

afte camp i am looking forward to dinner with kiewu WHOM I REALISED I MISSED VERY MUCH AFTER BUMPING INTO HIM AT SCHOOL TT DAY, and SUERN WHOM I HAVEN BUMPED INTO YET BUT I ALSO MISS HER.<3333333

2009-12-13T00:35:00.003+08:00

you want me to be responsible then you should at least have the decency to do the same.

you dont just go and stay elsewhere and not let me know that noone is at home, not tell me that you are not coming back.

how does it feel to come home late, TO AN EMPTY HOUSE after doing a project the entire day
AND WOW, my bed is very messy because while cleaning the room you just dump everything on my bed?!

screw the world now, seriously.
should never come home on a saturday night.

instead of fretting about this and that
i should be out and enjoying myself like nobody's business!!

when the time comes, i'm gonna have fun and don't tell me i can't.

2009-12-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

whoever came up with learning centre SHOULD BE SHOT.
i want to die just thinking of activities for my centre
and i want to kill myself.

sometimes, when you are at your most stressed and lonely
the person expected to be by your side
will be too preoccupied with their own lives to realise that you need them.
and when they realise it, it will be too late.
because the damage has already been done.

2009-12-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

what's been going on the past week:

having reunion dinner-like meals at makan place.

totally not paying attention in lectures..

posing for nice photos like these

doing projects...

taking pictures with another trigger-happy friend to produce happy photos like these

sleeping anywhere and everywhere in school..

trying to look like people's boyfriends (HAHAHA)

trying to tackle projects with smiles on our faces..

and stupid ones, once in awhile.

i know i look damn free in the photos right.

so deceiving seriously.

SO STRESSED ABOUT MY LEARNING CENTRE AHHHHHHHHH

2009-12-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

Forward, Backward?

sometimes you just feel like you're taking one step forward, and two steps back.

i always thought i trust people easily, and its easy to win back my trust.
but now im beginning to realise, it really isnt easy to do that.
trust is so fragile eh.

aiyah im so irritated right now.

i know it has nothing to do with me
but somehow when you've been through so much already,
wont you get irritated when you see someone making rash decisions and all that without thinking through everything?
sometimes i wish i was more conscientious and patient in the past.
then i would have taken a whole load off my shoulders.

sometimes, you also wish you weren't so sensible.

too bad.

2009-12-09T23:49:00.002+08:00

am quite tired, so a brief post today.

just for the record, i have never been interested in joining twitter, and never will.
mainly because i think it's pointless for me to get my page flooded with most-of-the-time useless twits by people who tweet constantly.
and with no substance, at that.

so dont think you've got a follower in me, cos i'd rather have my eyeballs gouged out than stalk you.

singaporeans are singaporeans.
trying to speak with a slang does not convince me that its natural or that its cool.
it just shows me how hard you are trying to be, and failing miserably.
because ultimately if i can tell that its a slang, you do not have an accent, you are trying to fake it.

LOL i could go on and on about this but i dont see the need to.
the whole wide world would already know my views, and agreed on it a thousand times.
because there is no two ways about it; you are one retarded moron who has no idea.

onto something else,
i had a long talk with b today.
haha i wish i didnt have to go home because it was a good talk.
honesty, straightforward, and everything that sets us apart from the others.
because of who we are, there will always be that struggle we have been fighting.
it is only, up to us to make it work.
(:

2009-12-08T19:16:00.005+08:00

okay photos from work!
most are from sher's last day of work with me and lucinda!! those would be the ones with all 3 of us in red tops and black bottoms.

having fun when noone's around!

like this photo!

this is a classic bimbo moment photo. i put hot water in plastic cup.

look at plastic cup.

why so vulgar haha

peace is the way to go!

wah i like this photo, i look like im doing a dance move hahaha.

this one look like we are high on drugs. BUT WE ARE NOT.

red ghosts HAHAHA. our bottoms practically disappeared in this photo, lol.

trying to coordinate jump shots is hard work. go facebook to see full extent of failure.

the ones i put here are the ones that show me jumping the highest because this is my blog, and therefore it is only right for me to want myself to look good.

on the favourite chair before we all fell off.

be careful of the knife, all you irritating customers.lol.

i miss her already lor.

im like.. not looking forward to work anymore, poof.

not that i have the time anyways.

zzzzzzz

am still stuck on SF essay, although reassurance from clar and alanna is very.. er. reassuring. yes.

hahahah.

WE ARE MAKING A MINI MOVIE FOR IT!

so fun, if only we had more time.

went queensway today to get a longer pair of shorts.

its okay if the brand is FBT right.

as long as its longer than the usual FBT.

right??

if not i would have wasted my money.

and i bought a pair of shoes.

black color nobrand shoes JUST FOR CAMP.

i think shumei was annoyed with me cos i kept asking, DOES THIS GO WITH STUPID LONG BERMS?

cos i hate wearing shoes that dont match the stupid long berms that make me look.. stupid.

okay byebye i gonna go eat dinnah.

2009-12-07T22:46:00.001+08:00

MIND BLOCK MIND BLOCK!!

I AM HAVING WRITER'S BLOCK..
and my essay is due Thursday.

I DONT KNOW HOW TO CONTINUE WITH THE STUPID SF ESSAY WHY MUST WE DO A SF ESSAY ANYWAY

SINGAPORE FAMILIES POOOF.
I AM IN A SINGAPORE FAMILY WHY CANT I WRITE ABOUT MY FAMILY WHY MUST I GO AND FIND SOME ISSUE THAT HAS STRUGGLES AND STUFF.
I HAVE STRUGGLES IN MY FAMILY WHAT.
LIKE HOW IM STRUGGLING TO DO THIS STUPID SF ESSAY I WANT TO KILLL MYSELF ALREADY

AND WHY TONIGHT GOT NO WIND, MAKE ME PERSPIRE ONLY.
I AM VERY IRRITATED I WANT TO SCOLD THE A.D ALR BECAUSE I ALREADY DONT LIKE HER AND HER ESSAY IS MAKING ME VERY ANGRY.

2009-12-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

CONVICTIONS

So much more stressed, but at the same time, am more hyped up for camp!
i really cant wait to see whats in store at camp ignormous.
yeah even if it means i have to don yucky socks..and ugly shoes.. and BLEAH berms and oversized teeshirts.....
I STILL CANT WAIT FOR CAMP HAHA
i almost wish i wasnt going on the night bus, but still.
field prac is field prac.
no running away.

hmm projects.
i finished dpip alr, not my best work, but never mind.
SF IS STILL UNDONE BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO START STUPID SF.
f.p is still half done.

and WINDOWS MOVIE MAKER IS NOT DONE YET.
shucks I.T, seriously.

and i promise myself.
no clubbing no clubbing no clubbing.
no matter who asks me.
it's a conviction.
so get yourself convicted too, and stop tempting me.(:

2009-12-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

this was what i did ytd.
had dinner with adam folks.
and b(:

the b gives me mixed reactions.

there are times that he makes me so happy and all

but then there are times that i feel like we dont understand each other.

and stupid emo shit like that.

oh wellllllllllllll.

today was my last day working with SHERLYN....

=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

imma miss her like mad

she makes me not wanna work anymore too.

today was damn tiring please.

was so looking forward to conquering the basement foodie places

but i hardly left the shop today!

from the time i came in till the end!

i felt like i was doing morning and night shift together.

and the customers were all pissing me off.

although..sales was super good.

aiyah thats not the point la.

will misss sherlyn loads.

ok im just gna stone the whole night away la.

i'm not in a bad mood nor am i in a good mood.

im just....... pondering over alot of stuff.

nope not projects, i'll save them for tmr.

2009-12-05T09:50:00.003+08:00

hello people.
here's to what i've been doing the past week at school.

ah boon's dance concert(:

we haven taken mirror pics for so long, so here's to the restart of more.

after the ultra long tiring day where firstly, i got lost trying to get to jacob ballas, i ended at WHAMPOA BUS INTERCHANGE..and that's not it. it was the second time i got lost and ended up there. anyway, then clar and i walked endlessly trying to find the stupid garden when it was like so freakin near. but we had a great time perspiring and making a fool of ourselves in that garden,lol.

oh yeah, and it was the last week with my cell! gonna miss the gradssssssssss.

aye i like this photo cos i look so cool right hahahahahha.

then i like this one cos im actually not aware, and im not being unglam.

somebody call 911, shawty fire burning on the dance floor, whoaaaa.

alll paying attention.

hey body, you're filling up pretty fast. dont get any fatter okay?

this is me, with cramps.

awwwwww(:

ogay, today is work day.

but it's gonna be grrreat cos i've got lu and sher for company!

yesterday i was such a pig.

i went down to the store and packed myself a pint and brought it home together with a HF mudcake which i just ate(:

yummy mummy.

but as always, i've got pending assignments yet to be done.

soooooo away we go.

2009-12-02T22:31:00.005+08:00

Straight Vs Curls

firstly, Big thank you to cecelia for the AWESOME HSM SKIN HAHAHAAH.

dont u just love sharpay?

okay today i was just thinking..

about my hair.

Last time in sec school, i was pretty much crazy about straight hair, ask anyone.

i rebonded it, i prayed, i used straightening shampoo(which was crap by the way) TO MAKE MY HAIR AS STRAIGHT AND THIN AND LAYERED AS POSSIBLE.

HOW MUCH MORE CHAO AH LIAN COULD I GET HAHAHA.

look, just look!

okay i cringe to think about it, let alone look at it so we shall stop at two.

on the other hand, let's take a look at the awesome curls of today!

during halloween.

best, i love the curls best in this photo.

awesome la, my hair may not be as straigh as dora's bangs, but at least im not the weird one in the photo(:

love the hair ahhaha.

and completely unrelated, i love red suspenders too. and the second photo because i look so happy.

although i hate that it keeps coming off my too-smooth-until-cannot-clasp-anything black shorts.

ANYWAY.

the point is,

I'm glad my hair had a mind of its own and rebelled against TWO TIMES OF rebonding.

because you, my dear, messy uncombed hair, never looked better than now.

Curls FTW!

2009-11-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

since there's nothing interesting to do online now.. let's give a half hearted attempt to revive this space.

what can i say about embarrasing experiences? that they are all one of a kind and no amount of embarrasing situations can help you foresee the next one.

highlights:
1) getting hit by the opening/closing thing at mrt stations. the one where you tap your card? yeah, i promise you, the light was green when i walked but IT CLOSED SO SUDDENLY IT LIKE HIT ME IN THE TUMMY.. and i was like OOOFFF and im sure my face was super red okay. and i was alone. and i was in a rush.

2) standing near the lift door while waiting for it to come, and coincidentally the person inside was standing near the door also so when the door opened you can only imagine my reaction. hahahaha. my gooodness. uncontrollable laughter.

okay la time to go back to my stupid school work.

2 essays down, JUST A GAZILLION MORE TO GO.

2009-11-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

i think the only time i am ever going to blog is when i'm upset and feeling my worst and most hated feeling ever.............emo.

because who in the world has time to blog when you're so happy and carefree, cos you just wanna enjoy alll of it before it ends.

i hate PMS dont you.
instead of coming up with all the supid super absorbency pads,
the companies should come up with one that absorbs the cramps, AND the stupid intensifying emotions.

my eyes become a running tap when im pms-ing.
things that make me angry make me cry.
and i feel so pathetic when that happens.

like nggh.
get over it.

i dont care for PMS very much.

2009-10-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

feels good when someone does something out of the way for you(:

thank youuuuuuu:D

2009-10-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

ya know.. everywhere you go there's always someone better than you.

in grades, in personality, in looks.

and no matter how confident you try to be, its plain hard when there's always someone better than you.

but im determined to really stand firm to who I am in God.
and see myself through God's eyes, and really, not give two hoots about the world and its values.

i AM the kind who's easily affected by what people think of me,
but gotta learn to not let those nitty gritty stuff get to me(:

2009-10-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

school has started, and so far im fine.
my teachers are generally not bad...
except for some funny ones.
hahaha

yes i've heard it many times before... having me a student sucks, cos i have a thousand and one comments about teachers.
=x

amidst the back to school flurry...
there is swimming tmr!
at mich's brand new house whoopeeee
finally get to see her and LUCKY AND COCO!!
so excited.
hope there is sun, because i dont want to be a white chicken...=(

byebye.

2009-10-11T19:34:00.006+08:00

pictures before the blog gets REALLY boring.

these, courtesy of delia the pro photographer(:
picnic at hort park!:D

happy photo:D

jump shots whee!

cant beat fun with the girls(:

love this shot best.

lifen's 18th!(: at the nicest chalet ever hahah.

"ASK and you shall receive"

story behind these is that, because we got cravings for macaroons, we went to canele to beg for them, and we initially rejected=((.. but before closing hehehehehe the veh nice manager gave us a whole boxx! and then i brought the leftovers home to eat, and now im not gonna touch another one for weeks to come.

enjoying our macaroons babehhhhh!!

my favourite work girllls(:

some people just cant sit properly,haha.

her tongue is tooo long man hahaha.

that joyous friday night hahaha. not supposed to be there, but im such a sucker for work aye.hahaha.

work's awesome with the awesome company:D

my hair got VERY curly after i cut it=((((

we endorse chunkfest and high hair(:

with the many-zer.

mich, this photo where got ahlian sia lol.

check out the big cheeeks.

this was a one off, i promise. i dont normally burn things this bad hahahahah.

gonna miss the picnics and fun when school starts.

did i mention my timetable's prettty sucky?

it is.

2009-10-11T18:49:00.002+08:00

the holidays are almost over...
and i didnt repair my laptop..=x hahaha.
procrastination stinks huh.
it runs in the family, because my mom hasnt made the internet wireless for me this entire holiday too.lol.

before hols are overr there is
one last chalet,
PORK KNUCKLES (YUMMY SCRUMBOES),
ignytion.

to tell the truth, because of the way im feeling now,
i really really didnt wanna go for ignytion.

but i pray for discipline, and the heart of obedience that will compel me to go for what i know, will help me grow.

you disappointed me again last night.
but in the midst of sadness, there is still love.
i am ready to go for that meeting, to bring us to another level.
and i will face it with a positive and logical mind=D
now the question is, are youuu ready?

praise God for who He is yesterday, today, and forever.
i shall be consistent.

2009-10-03T08:59:00.003+08:00

HAHA
yours truly woke up by falling off the bed today.

was sleeping in a QUEEN SIZED BED (SO BIG SOMEMORE) with mom.
then i dont know what i doing, roll all the way to the edge.
THEN I FELL OFF AND when i realised, i tried to grab hold onto something like the bedside table..
and it crashed to the floor like me and i hit my arm and knee against the cupboard SO LOUD IT WOKE MY MOM UP AND SHE SAID i sounded like an elephant HAAHHAHAAHHAHA.

SO CLUMSY I cant believe im so clumsy!!

then after that i couldnt go back to sleep cos i kept laughing to myself when i replayed the scene over and over in my mind.
ahahahahhaaha.

this is the second time i hit myself when sleeeping leh.
the first time was on my own bed, i roll to the wall edge then i banged my forehead really hard on the wall AND MY WALL IS NOT SMOOTH ONE..
ahahahaha .

i need those baby cot thingy, to prevent me from dropping.
and padded walls.

my gosh.
so i ate brekkie at 8 plus..
and now am still wide awake.

lol.

2009-09-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

thought i'd post some pics of what i did in Sept before the month ends..

cecelia's bday chalet(:

and now noone can say he's not sporting haahaha.

chunk fest(:

Combined worship ex(:

WORK!:D

with fun people like lucinda.

pink looks so manly HAHAHAHAHAH.

yup so today went on a sorta picnic at Hort Park.

then swimming.. or rather more of wading in the baby pool..

then watching a stupid show, and playing with two cute dogs.

today was definitely fun(:

oh and laughing at ris low..

LOL.. i gotta watch it again, just cracks me up.

love it when people are humorous even when they try not to be:D

2009-09-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

aiyahhhh i cant get the song outta my mind.
its so niceeeeeeee.
and asher book!!!

2009-09-29T00:26:00.001+08:00

today would have been a super boring work day if not for sher:DD

2009-09-28T12:50:00.001+08:00

HAVE YOU WATCHED FAME YET?

if u have, then u probably love this song too. along with asher book.
if u havent, then you should go watch it soon ya:D

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change and maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
but I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love we’ve been hiding enough
if I sing you a song would you sing along or wait till I'm gone ,
oh how we push and pull if
I give you my heart would you just play the part or
tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you while your running away ,
to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
but I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough
I will try for your love
I can hide up above

LOVE IT LOVE IT:D

2009-09-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

reallaye enjoyed my morning today with jeann nat and joan.
(:
IF ONLY ELO WAS THERE!:D

but it was greaaat catching up over yakun..
and laughing about everything.
my goodness, didnt wanna go to work after meeting u guys.
hahaha but ah, i had a great time at work too.
laughed like supah alot.
lol.
and had fun at night for dinner.

enjoyed the entire day immensely.
:D

2009-09-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

I CANNOT STAND SOME PEOPLE.

they disturbed my sleep during chalet.
they cut my queue when im buying dessert.
they piss me off in shopping centres, toilets, everywhere.
AND TODAY THEY PISSED ME OFF ON THE BUS.

and everyone knows whooo im talking about.

while waiting for bus right, this woman go push her way in front of me.
so i was a lil cheesed off alr but what the heck i just stood beside her la.
then WHEN GOING UP THE BUS RIGHT SHE GO PUSH MEEE TO CLIMB UP U KNOW.
HELLO IF YOU CANNOT CLIMB UP THE BUS BY YOURSELF THEN DONT TAKE BUS OKAY.
NFSODKFOJIDJFNLJASPAKSP{WIE(WIERK!{

2009-09-21T14:55:00.001+08:00

BOOOO TO CRAMPS ON THE WEEK WHERE IM WORKING>.

today is bad day.
and im working 4.30 to close.
and stock take today
:::::::::::::(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2009-09-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

i am unable to put it beautifully in words.
what went on last night, what went on today.

in cell
tried to put it all away and just praise Him.. like the falala God is so good.
but i couldn't do it that way.
i guess He wanted more sincerity.
it was like He was saying

dont squelch your emotions.
but let yourself be overwhelmed by me, once again.

you dont get accustomed to Him.
you are amazed every single time.

He is constant,
but He is not predictable.

shall not elaborate further on zee personal stuff.

2009-09-18T09:12:00.001+08:00

shucks for the one C..
praise the Lord for the two DISTINCTIONS!:D

although.. my cumulative gpa is still at 3.4...HAHA..
so near to my goal yet so far.

OH wells.
overall very happy still(:
B plus for FM.
means my financial mgmt not so bad la hor.
hahahaha.

:D:DD::DD:DD:DD:D:DD

2009-09-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

i need another tv in the house.

2009-09-07T23:05:00.001+08:00

today i am very tired, worked 10 hrs hahaha
but it was good cos i finally got a new teeshirt, and got two scoops of ice cream yippeee.
:D
and for the first time in a long time,
i can barely control my laughter.
i know its very mean to laugh about a customer, but im honestly very tickled and i had to go inside the storeroom to laugh before coming out.
teehee.

2009-09-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

yay to michelle and cecelia forr getting in!!:D
we swim together we shop together we scrap together we stone together and now we can work together:D

next few dates coming up
-cecelia's chalet!!
-section outing!!
plan for
- suern!
- the awesome five other flowers and cactus
- nat,poansie and jeannzies!
- CHARGE CAMERA..

finish up scrappings.
:D
its kinda fun to do them although the lack of artistic flair can be verry irritating and depressing.

money spent on it is kinda sad too.

swimming tmr!
gotta love them tanlines.
and 4one!
i cant wait.
buhbye!

2009-09-02T00:26:00.002+08:00

i went sun tanning
swimming
light shopping
lovely shumei and noelle bought scarf for me.
lovely me bought bangles for myself.
lovely cecelia and michelle spent ALOT of time with me(: and im loving it;D
went gymming yesterday( NO ITS NOT A JOKE, STOP LAUGHING WITH DISBELIEF)
according to michelle, i suck at gymming.
i am not surprised.
hahaha
i am easily tired
i only love the toilet in the gym
cos its clean and air conditioned.
the stupid treadmill is tiring and so is the bicycle.
the other machines are plain pai-sehing.
i am so not gonna get toned.lol.

and we went to the db gym place thingy
HAHAHAAHAHA
and i was like wow if people see me inside the db reputation would hit rock bottom.
and i would be the infamous whitest person dragonboater hahaha.

then went to watch bandslam.
i liked the show, and the songs were nice!
favourite scene would be the one where he tried to kiss vanessa hudgens HAAHHAHA.

and then tonight was a happy night.
you know how it feels
when you're just sitting at a random place and talking about things close to your heart, to someone close to your heart.

and tmr is a day with my cousin whos back in singapore for gooood!
which means i gotta sleep now cos im meeting her pretty early.
seeeeeeee ya!

2009-08-30T20:14:00.002+08:00

oh and here're some pics of bessie(:

shes so fat she needs two chairs.

look at the awesome fur.

cant stop touching ahhaah

kinda miss having bessie around.

stop kissing me lehh!

2009-08-30T19:58:00.002+08:00

gracielle's 5th birthday yesterday.(:
at the humongous chalet, with many big rooms and super big garden.
but mosquitoes galore.

with cousin and cousin to be.

popo and the aunt.

small girl who never held a balloon before hahaha.

i like this balloon la last time balloon where got so nice one...=(

AND I LOVE THE PRINCESS CAKE!

u see the cute princess rings!

can fit on my little finger lor, but i abit paiseh to ask for it HAHAHAH.

nephew! cutest smile of the night, and i got it!

so magical right. cos my mom's camera in aircon for too long ahahaha.

that's the birthday girl.

2009-08-29T09:33:00.003+08:00

hello.

ya know whaaaaaaat
i still dont feel the exhilarating freedom one is supposed to feel when they have no school for 2 months.

i still feel tied down by responsibilities and authority.

i would really really like to go on a holiday to nowhere.
now i know i am really quite picky about holiday destinations
*cough* SWITZERLAND! *coughs*.
but im so desperate for a break from everything
i would go to KELONG FOR A BREAK.

wanna stop what im doing
wanna start doing things i never did.

i just want to go crazy, y'know?

but how can i.
when im not supposed to.

2009-08-28T12:23:00.002+08:00

honestly, if i had a dog, i would have a very sad life because i cant bear to step out of the house!!
im currently dog-sitting for my godmum
and i think bessie misses her cos she's like walking around in circles and keeps going to the door.
and i think she barely slept last night so she's sleeping now haahah.
was just about to go play with her then i saw her sleeping so peacefully..

she's gotten fat man, can cuddle her to sleep
i slept on the couch last night hahaha
cos shes too cute to be sleeping alone.

shes so proactive.
she went into my mom's room, jumped onto her bed, squeezed in between her and my granny and lay down.
my mom was like GET OFF GET OFF THE BEDD!!!

hahhahaa.
and when i went downstairs to buy stuff she gave such a saaaaaadddddd face
and i cant stop playing with her.
hahahaha
but she keeps licking my face, i think im gna have breakouts sooooon.

wheeeeeeee besssie
i love you
as long as i dont have to clean your pooop.
:D:D

2009-08-25T10:33:00.002+08:00

exammmms are overrrrrrrr!
dle wasnt as bad as itbd but not veryyy superbly confident either la

anyway i dont care about exams anymore.
what i care about it what happens after exams
went town with cecelia and michelle ytd
had loads of fun trying on shoes and heels which they insisted i should start wearing more often..
and making a fool of myself trying to walk with them but its okay cos michelle made a bigger fool of herself when she tried to do a catwalk jahahahaa.
then this horrible two girls kept looking for obiang dresses that would suit me
arseeee.lol.

then as usual when i go shopping i always see things that i want very badly but cannot buy.
this topshop SUPERMAN PYJAMAS!!!!!
so cute la
tank top and cartoooonish pants.
love at first sight hahaha but mother says 40 bucks(AFTER DISCOUNT SOMEMORE LEH) is too expensive for pjs.
which is kinda true i guesss......
BUT THE POINT OF HAVING A PJ PARTY IS SO THAT WE CAN GET NEW PJS WHAT RIGHT CECELIA??
hahahahaha,.
neh mind.
im gonnna borrow instead.
then i didnt even get to buy the cute little boxer shorts from cotton on!
cos dont have my size njcklscadjpasjdkpakda.
its black with colorful hearts hahahhahaha.
15 bucks only.

okay then the ultimate i-want-it-so-badly item.
this really FITTING ( AS IN IT REALLY FITS) striped blazer from club monaco!!
lol really nice i can imagine what i'll wear it with already teehee.
then i ask the lady how much.
then i heard" ....55.."
then im like sorry? cos i was thinking 55 is cheap cheap cheap!
"355 dollars"
OHHHHHH.
darn
darn darn.

hahahahahhaha and sooooooo im praying and hoping some kind rich generous soul will get it for me?
im a size two:D:D:D:D:D:D
I REALLY WANT IT!

then cecelia was like
okay do u want the blazer or the chanel earrrings
and im like............
................

so now actually i need TWO rich generous souls teheee.

=(
I WANT TO SHOP ENDLESSLY AHH I THINK IM GOING TO DIEEEEEE>HAHHAHHA.

anyways today is swimming with the same girllls(:
finally.. after so long i get to swwim.

2009-08-15T14:28:00.001+08:00

bah to life.

2009-08-14T22:52:00.002+08:00

happy birthday godmummy.
though i haven had time to spend with family recently
i miss them and love them very much.

it was great dinner tonight, yummy steak and pork knuckles!
felt bad abt missing cell dinner, but i enjoyed time with the family.

i feel like
its always a time of giving of my time to people.
and not myself.

and a time where its really up and down.
its up one second and down the next.
it's wearing me out.

where love is concerned, you know thats what will pull you through.
but where love is not so concerned?
you just wanna give up.
really give up.

if i could love the world, things would be much easier.

2009-08-13T23:26:00.001+08:00

studied with meekia today.
(:

made few notes
hahaha and michelle had a fun time talking to hongkongers hahahahahahha.

aiyah im gg to miss her and gillman heights mannn!
the cosy little reading room.
=(

2009-08-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

physically, im still soso.
everything else?
very tired.

2009-08-11T23:47:00.008+08:00

photos from fb from long long ago.
this post is for my sch friends.

taken during aesthetics night

here's a pic of michelle flashing at me haha

here's us trying to pretend we dont have any projects.

here's a very nice photo of alanna clar me and dora.<3

last days with eliza; i have now looked past her eyebrows.:D

last days with lavina!!

trying to be troy and gabriella, and failing miserably

here's my happily devouring alanna's brownie(:

under the jellyfishes

last days with ms sue

huiwen being the extra rabbit here.when we're all doing the gangsta face ah hahaha

this was taken at mich's house at for her bday celebration. with lucky starring as michelle for the day cos she was sick and looked quite terrible lol.

we're all white, so stop making fun of me.

what we did on clar's birthday

i stuffed myself with 22 dollars worth of food.

on her actual birthday, on which she did not come to school..so the cake stands in for her.lol.

last days with brenda

siao zha bor here.

eh say this picture is cute, cos i think its cute HAHAHAH.

angmohs

traditional phototaking after FM to relieve stress.

and dora thinks im a bad girl.

wah i love how my necklace loooks so bling in this.

okay here are my school friends, i love them very much.

church friends next time.

i have a very embarrassing video of myself on facebook right now.

2009-08-10T23:14:00.001+08:00

and you would think that after an entire day
i would feel better.

DISAPPOINTING AHHHH.

2009-08-10T17:24:00.003+08:00

its a bad day.

fm is making me crazy.
and i feeel the same way i feel when its nearing exams.
which is pms-y moody-unless-someone-comes-to-my-house-and-treats-me-like-a-princess- and-study-what-im-studying-nothing-is-going-to-make-me-feel-better day.
okay maybe if kate were here it would cheer me up too.

past weeks i feel like

i try but i still make mistakes.
im tired.
im really tired.
but i cant give up now can i?

it's not what You called me to do.
but what exactly did You call me to do....?

2009-08-07T08:51:00.002+08:00

the blog is so dry without photos.
just be patient, after my exams..

eeek i dont wanna take the fm test, its gonna be the end of me i just know it. i can feel it in my bones.

hrrmms.
i am running low on cash tooo......

hooray for tonight's ihal gathering, it shall keep me positive and sane.

then im gna head to my bro's house for some cherise and david quality time!

yayy yesterday alicia and my cousin called from aussie, and im gna get my blazer! THANK YOOOUUUUU SO HAPPYYYY!

then right, my mom gave me her denim shirt thingy cos too small for her, YAYYY AGAIN!
and she gave me all rights to the new bag because she doesnt like it either! YAYYY THRICE!

mhmm.
if there were no exams, this would be perfect.

2009-08-02T11:26:00.002+08:00

stupid laptop.
STUPID ESSAY.
I HATE FINDING NEMO.
hahahaha.

no i dont.
i just hate the assignment.
gosh u stupid essay on parenting styles.

burn u hate u hit u slap u.

stupid customer ytd=(
if you're in such a hurry u shudnt have bought an ice cream cake.
lol.

2009-08-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

breather today.

had guotie(FINALLY) with cecelia, reubs and justin.
it was like heaven,hahaha. my gosh love guotie to bits.
okay then cecelia and i went to island creamery where i had baked alaska(FINALLY TOO).
and it was like second heaven.

and i really enjoyed today's girrrl talk man!
teeehee, so glad we went out today!:D

so yeah, then back to the nitty gritty life.
of work tmr.
8 hrs=x.
and essay, oh gosh essay.
i dread coming up with essays with structure.
when its not supposed to flow, it flows awesomely.
when it;s supposed to flow, it doesnt.

hate formats and structures and outlines.

2009-07-28T22:11:00.003+08:00

hello there.
soo many things on my mind.
i dunno where to start, so i dont think i'll start at all.

maybe i will.
randomly;

one really should be a complete person by his/herself before getting together with someone else. if not you're really just shortchanging him/her..
two should complement each other, and not complete.

a heart of a leader.
it's hard. im just wondering, when i do put in the effort, does it get any easier?
working towards that now.

i zoomed through so many projects recently, i just feel like im in a slack mode right now and i dont really want to work for anything.
jolyn loh that is wrong thinking.
you've got loads to do.
do well for your remaining projs, study hard for your exams, including fm, clean your room(my mom begs), and do something productive.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
mini speech and essay to be 3/4 done by tmr!.
eeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkk.
my speech sounds lame, BUT I DONT CARE. i am lame.so be it.

essay.
oh gosh if not for the consultation i wouldnt be doing it =x.

SOMETHING IS WRONG I TELL YOU
i sleep earlier this week..
BUT I FIND IT HARDER TO WAKE UP AND MORE SLEEPY DURING THE DAY!
why ah!
i couldnt open my eyes this afternoon.
i love to sleep on dora's shoulder.
aahahaa.
and i love trying to steal her first kiss,teehee.

BUHBYE.

2009-07-26T23:01:00.001+08:00

today was happy day, in more ways than one.

awesome wedding for bro andre and sis gwen, touching too(:
soo happy and sooo sweet.
elaborate more next time.
(:

and today was the end of my shopping drought!!!
momsy was especially generous today,
i got a pair of levis, a dress, a bag, and a crop top!
WHEEEE:D
maybe i should not shop for very long again then i can get marvellous shopping spreees!
whoopeee!

2009-07-25T10:24:00.003+08:00

hi!

stupid story tell all of you guys

and joan is my co story teller.hahah.

we went to have express mani at far east for bro andre and sis gwen's wedding.

just ran into one random one.

which on hindsight, shouldnt have, cos it was like empty empty and the people there not very the friendly lehhh.

hahaha anyway it was awkward AND THE BEST PART..

cos usually after mani my fingers will be dry alr ma

then i stupidly dug for my wallet after the mani

and yeah smudged it..hahahahha.

joan smudged hers too!

then we were like so paiseh, we didnt say anything in the shop until we stepped out, and then we look at our nails and laughed for like one minute.

hahahah anw thanks for sponsoring hahaha

im gna get amanda to bring the same color polish and paint for me after cell tmr.

okay now i cant wait to sample bro jeremy's cooking!

verry hungry.

2009-07-23T22:39:00.002+08:00

hi all.
major DLE is over, thank goodness.
very proud of my clique, ya'll did a grrreat job!
and to my grp members, it was excruciating, but i loved our marine math.(:

i feel like i'm 3/4 through the journey of projects.
so im breathing..
and then i..
am.
sick.

HOW NICE EH.
getting a sore throat now, its kinda bad cos i got no appetite to eat=(
oh wells.

rushing my f.p evaluations now!!

2009-07-23T11:00:00.002+08:00

i may not have time to post alll my photos(which is alot)...

but i definitely have time to show you my good friend, dora who was trying to imitate my double chin but my goodness, she can take over me as the next chen han wei HAHAHAHAH.

2009-07-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

never thought i'd say this..but i cant wait for exams to come, with the exception of FM test.

i just want this stupid curse of the never ending projects to be overr!!
it's like seriously one after anotherrrrrrr lorr.

haha but in spite of everything, let's remember
the five loaves and two fishes..
or in our case,
the five rolls and two layers.
shall explain more next time. byebye.

2009-07-11T14:02:00.001+08:00

Aesthetics night was not bad actually
haha
got to catch up with many, and see the teachers.(:

i now realise that if i ever want to have curly hair, i must get contacts.
how annoying.

gonna do the write up for MAYC now..
it kinda sucks when you've got things to do and then there's work later.
=(

2009-07-09T23:51:00.002+08:00

in the midst of all the drama and stupid happenings...
i am blessed to have my 5 flowers and one cactus together with me(:
i loveee all of you very very much.

stayed back till late to do FM today.
it's a cursed project i tell you, it never ends!
anyways, elaine, dora, clar, alanna and i went to KAP and had a great time talking about stuff..mostly about guys.haha.

its kinda funny huh, how guys can make you the happiest in the world......angriest....and, saddest.

guess the main point is really, what do you really want?
what are your intentions?
its not the THINGS that matter, it's the effort, it's the heart behind it..

but very very often, the guys just don't get it.
shrugs.

at least we girls have them girlfriends to rant about it.<33

2009-07-08T22:20:00.003+08:00

hi all, no photos, cos im too lazy,
NO im not lazy. im tired.

soo much drama nowadays. uninvited, and unwanted, but whatever.
it's over, of course. but not forgotten.

and with other things going on.. just got me thinking on the bus;

hmm i want to say alot of things, but i cant put them in words.

just that, girls really are so precious and guys ought to keep reminding themselves that.
dont be cavalier, because as strong as she is, a heart that's open, bleeds.

and girls
we have to learn to have a balance of heart and mind.
as much as the heart wants to rule, sometimes it's our mind that saves us.

dont worry everyone im not emo nope this has no relation to my personal relationships,
i'm just thinking.

:)

i think im losing my way with words=(

2009-07-04T11:51:00.009+08:00

pictures from facebook, a lil messy..

dont u just love deb's eyebrows hahaha.

love the lift's wallpaper.

taken after fm!

cos we all need a little cheering up after FM.

the timer had two shots, and we didnt know, so this is me walking towards the camera when the flash went off.

with dora the superstar! hahaha. no la, her eye kena swelling cos of unknown allergy.

ALANNA, the person next to me who also very busy on fb and msn.

seee.. after Fm my eyes so small.

this is a shot of me when im prepared.

this is a shot of me when im unprepared.

THIS SPOIL MY IMAGE. i really look like 75% auntie aye.

horrigible.

These were taken after AST test, the 50% test which was less than 5 mins. amazingg.

YOU! better dont piss me off or ELSE..haaaa.

clar the fierce.

my teeshirt says work hard for prada. NOT PORK LARD.

doncha love these weird people..i do!

say hello to me, the next chen hanwei. right clar?hahahaha.

huiwen like flying in the wind sia.

whassup fatface!

lifen doesnt think im funny..=x

alanna so yoummmmy!

huiwen the supermodel!!

playing our stupid math game. i thought i was going to die, hahaha cos the blood rushed to my head and i was like OMG im gna die in MAYC TUTORIAL.

we look like POWs.hahaha.

the revenge of the.. fruit loop!

we've got our fruit loops! have you?

aiyoh jolyn, so fat alr still want to eat in class. know your limits leh, girl. HAHAHA.

taken during DLE.

drink water, and you can be as retarded as me.:D

poor teacher, i think she hates us. we're like.. totally not engaged with her at allll.

doncha just love my squidward face.

so how has my 2nd half of the week been?

basically the su had mc, and that made me verrryy happy. but we've got makeup, which sucks. but whatever.

financial management is draining me of my heart mind and soul.

i go into class and i just want to get it over and done with because everything just flies past my head!!!

I HATE FM I REALLY DO.

then encountered some unnecessary grouping problems too, but whatever.

work starts nexxt week instead of today yay so i can meet up with cecelia for some good food and ice cream later.

BUT I THINK SHE HAVEN WAKE UP YET HAHAHAHAH WAKIE WAKIE!!

okok im gna go shit now.

oh ya i think im gg to have alot of photos from now on cos our dear dora says we must take photos everyday in school:D

i dont mind.

hahahahahhaha.

see ya!

2009-07-02T12:12:00.002+08:00

yesterday was an awesome day(:

in DLE, teacher gave us lollies.
in MAYC, teacher gave us fruit loops!
so i was on a sugar high:D:D

then went to watch ice age 3!
at first i wanted to watch transformers again HAHAHA but ice age 3 was awesome too.
soo happy, caught 2 awesome movies in one week!

walked around raffles area, lingered at the bridge for awhile before heading home.

ohh yeah finally managed to buy the coolio shakespear book that shaq has!
last piece! haha.

yepppp okie days like that dont come all the time, especially now that school has begun. but i'm keeping my fingers crossed.(:

OH and today teacher on MC so no class at all, except for the test la, but that doesn't count.

2009-06-29T20:32:00.019+08:00

alrightey.. i dont think this is all.. but here's most of em anyway!
thank you individuals for painstakingly posting it on fb, and i thank myself for painstakingly posting it here(:

hahha and there's gideon who popped flowers instead of popper.

alex!

gervais, cl, alex, with danny and sy doing wrong poses.

fang is not a womaniser he thinks he is..

uh-uh. no way.

glittery disco ball dresses

real life prom couldnt be better than this!

me love noelle cos she is great friend!

hey look, is the dude from fighting spiders! hahaha

bren, claud,rach.

claud so cute!

something about being in flamboyant dresses that make us wanna take photos all the time!

he looks han-sum, but i look retarded. grrreat.

haha im not the only one, deb smells pits too! use rexona! HAHAHAHAAHA.

enjoyed spending loads of time with you girl!(:

the beloved poansie and bimb.

shes old....

only when she doesnt open her mouth!haha.

eh bren's face rounder than mine!hahahah.

janet! make up pro.

i look just as sporty as him whoopee!

with laughter, relief, tears, thanksgiving.

a LOT of memories:D

mdm chua!

whatever man, coach. haha.

we're the extras! but cute ones.

claire, reubs, and extra nat.

:D:D

darn it, i look younger than her.

haha it's a curse! i cant stand with my legs closed!

wah alex, so glam behind yah! haahahha my memory of jin is him telling the macs delivery that he just realised macs at sing post is open so no need devlivery anymore.hahaha.

this is the biggest night of our lives....!

although it looks like only my face is tanned, i love this photo!

wah vernetta so cute cant stand it.lol.

she is the bimbo, not me.

dont mass with the pseudo netball girls man! hahaha.

with the very very patient sis eliza and sis alicia!

this is Ben & Jerry. HAHAHAHAHA.

this is the very wise bus uncle/dishwasher/cleaner dude with a voice to die for.

johnny and his trademark! I IS GOT MANY!

doctor, save us! haha.

agents B N J. HAHAHA.lame ttm.

SOO SEXY.

i look like a chipmunk with overgrown cheeks, darn.

lying on someone's tummy makes you laugh uncontrollably.

me with the overgrown sec one!

I ACTUALLY DO LOOK LIKE SEC ONE LA OMGGGGGGGGGG.

life conference!

with mr paul frank!

jump for joy!

pinching the very cute joel!!

goodgood. HAHA.

i may look young, but im not short, hehe;)

woohooo.

2009-06-29T18:46:00.002+08:00

watched transformers today!
loved it, i think it's an awesome show, both the first and second.
i wanna watch the first one now.
like the show, think megan fox is really hot.. sad to know shes not a tranny, cos then i cannot call my godbrother a tranny lover.
..
that sounded very wrong, jolyn.

ANYWAYS, the show was great.
im gna post the i have alot! photos up when i feel prepared to upload it:D

aiyah still cant get the musical outta my mind, it's everyywherrrrreeeeeee!

and im dying to play tap tap..=x.

as you can prolly tell, aint ready for sch!
music and movement today sucked.
lol.

2009-06-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

I HAVE ALOT!!

hahah loved every minute of rehearsals, late night "aiyah quick catch the last bus home" suppers, eh my dress droppping!! moments.

sad to see it end, definitely.
but glad for the experiences(: really wonderful to have been a part of this charity concert haaa.
thank God for the friends and opportunity!:D and the press coverage, in zee papers hahaha.

okay im actually quite sleepy, still got service tmr morning!
velly scared i cant wake up, haha goodnight!
looking forward to the mass tagging on facebook people!:D

so proud of everyone, and of course especially leslie cheong.

HAHAHAHHAH WOOHOO!!!!!! SO HIGH.

2009-06-21T22:51:00.002+08:00

i feel so blah now.
is it because i haven been shopping?
seriously leh, i think some good bargain deals will make me happier.. alot alot alot happier..

i open my cupboard, and i feel so sad.

but its not just the shopping-less thing of course.

rrrrrhhhhhhhhhh....

1.
hello common sense please, i think i can see rigggggggght through you, and so can everyone else.
wouldnt say i dislike you to the max, but i do hate what you're doing, it's gettin on my nerves!

2.
hi you, why must it be me thaat makes the effort to go here and there? why do i feel like im nothing much?

soooooo im pms-ing.
as usual.

2009-06-20T16:22:00.006+08:00

yay dancer girls(:

my love is not reciprocated.

ice cream chef<333

lol whaaat a sappy photo.

haha rach has happy small eyes.

this is the best photo of brenda that i have.hahaha.

pigging out during lectures.

monkey 1, and monkey 2 behind.

over due photos, up.

whoopee.

i get to see my godfamily today and stay at their house after so so long.

2009-06-18T22:35:00.002+08:00

i JUST have to blog about this

x went to the toilet to poo poo.
she did not lock the door, for some unknown reason, so the door was slightly ajar.
there was another girl in the cubicle beside her.
girl's friend enters, and goes like WOOOH ur shit stinks.
and girl answers, dont be disgusting la, im not the only one here.
girl's friend says, no, there's noone here what (BECAUSE DOOR IS SLIGHTLY AJAR)
and friend responds, there is!!
and X silently and slowly pushes the cubicle door and locks it...

HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.
i love x she is amazingly funny!

2009-06-16T09:29:00.002+08:00

i finally took down the photo which made alot of people go " OMG WHO/WHAT IS THAT?!" from my phone wallpaper.
ahahhhaha cos doraaa is baack!
yayness!
i cannot wait for science centre and underwater world next week.
yeah so geeky right heeeheee.

went ice cream chef yetterday.
photos up when i have zee time.
:D

buhbye now!

2009-06-12T23:46:00.003+08:00

im just wondering
what exactly makes people late?
like really, nothing to do with public transport. is there a problem with stepping out of the house door?
im not sarcastic, im being curious!:)

and now im getting abit sarcastic.
is there some unknown rule that we cannot shut up for one second?
must we talk constantly or else we'll burst?
you need discipline.
badly.
desperately.
to shuttup and give people attention so that you dont make a fool of yourself.
and you need respect.
but most importantly of all, you just need to shut your mouth when its time to do so and be focused.

i dont handle disappointments very well.
either i brood.
or the person close to me gets the blame for everything.
never mind you did nothing.
im disappointed, im sorry but you're gonna have to somehow take half the blame for it, you can be sure of that.
and honestly, i dont think this is a part of me that's gonna change.
sooooo deal with it.

although i have to say, you're getting quite good at dealing with it.
i say it grudgingly because i am still hungry and pissed and i want to be mad but theres no reason for me to be mad.

we pay so much for public transport, just a suggestion; make it 24/7 all night long please. i cant stand worrying about the last bus/train when all i wanna do is sit somewhere and chill before going home. i cannot wait for my own car. or at least the freedom to sit somewhere all night(no not at home) and like have nice clean fun. or at least the freedom of people who can send me home so i dont freak about the old ahpeks standing here and there in the shadows.=x GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

i have ordered macs delivery for my supposedly-dinner.
its gna take an hour.
=(

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU WARPED JOLYN YOU.
you passed your test?!
you're supposed to be celebrating!

but im moody im pissed i want to tell you that you suck and like whatever, do something to impress me please because i cant stand it the heat is killing me, i have no aircon can you believe im still alive in frikkin singapore.

HONESTLY JO, SOMETIMES YOU'RE MENTAL.

2009-06-12T15:54:00.002+08:00

i can alr predict hell for my fuhhhreaking financial mgt project.
the descriptor looks like the long list of updates for b&j.
and need to use excel and all that shiiiiiiat.

yes
shiaaaaaaat.

nowwwww right, the test looks soooo much better than this project.
=(

and i just found out that i 99% very likely cannot go for youth camp because my holiday doesnt start until 21st dec.
wtp right.
UGHH year 2 really sucks.

ANYWAYS.
i have twoo weeeeks of no school.
so =D

2009-06-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

been awhile since i posted.
mainly because photos are in lappy and not comp, but no wireless at home, so no internet for lappy.
its like sweltering hot at night.

got back abt an hr ago from rehearsal.
finished up stupid thousand word essay for herrrrr,
and sent it to clar who sounds really tired, i hope she gets a good night sleep.
yay because i am not completely out of touch with dora, she has web sms but everytime she sms my phone not with me one hahahaha.

actually wanted to read the itbd textbook but the heat and my rebellious droopy eyelids prevent me from doing so.
yeah i know, i sleep veh early, shuttup, i love to sleep.

yarrrp. tmr im gna wear fbt to school because i cant be bothered to think of what can be worn to both sch and church and bring change blahblahblah.

i have a mock test tmr, and i dont know what it is about, but i dont really care?
EEK.

i have to tell myself that after this two assignements its NOT holiday, because there's so many things just waiting to snap at me after the break is over.
some kinda break, pfft.

it would be great if people could shut up for just one minute.

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhxzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.