best friends forever : high school musical♥

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

hey peepsos once again.
had lit tuition jussst now.
it was waay better than previous session.
cos its JLC i guess.
i think JLC,although is pretty mind-boggling at times
is waay better than Macbeth.
i always get stuck when it comes to Macbeth.
maybe JLC speaks to me more.
hah.
not like im Chinese American, but it IS a female dominated book.
durh,it's about mother daughter relationships.

HMM.
ok so we started analysing the stories and i am once again so amazed by his genius mind.
it's unfair.
his handwriting is nicer,he's smarter.
roarr.
and he tried to insult me.
the things i put up with, JUST TO PASS LITERATURE.

hmm.
and my mom put the nice shiny choc fondue thingy in the middle of the table and said we'll eat it after Os.
and it's sitting there prettily in its wrapping paper and the big word CHOCOLATE FONDUE staring at me.
i know its meant to be motivation but it's making me drool all over my revision notes.

ah and i know i shouldnt be saying this but my monthly visitor is here
and im quite happy because it means by the time i take my lit paper, i wont be experiencing cramps;D
say hiphiphooray.

awrh.
no papers tmr.
so happy.
feels like a jolly hollyday.
:D
im so so so in denial.

AH thanks to suern who showed me the GAP webbie
I WANT GAP TEESHIRT.
NICE AH.
AND THE CARDIGAN.
AND THE HOODIE.

ok control jolyn.
your mother would rather buy babyGap for her precious grandchildren than you.
xD
its true btw.
the truth hurts.sigh.

and dont we all hate being affected by certain people and certain issues
and we wish we could not care
but it's almost impossible.

some hearts just get lucky.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

ANOTHER THING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT!
CHEENA IS OVER OVER OVER OVER! NO MORE CHEENA NO MORE CHEENA SAY YAY YAY YAYAYAYAY.

ok i know juztin's gonna glare at me again when he sees this.XD

PAPER ONE WAS KINDA HORRIBLE.
my standard is REALLY REALLY like a primary one's.
i should have warmed up by watching chinese shows cos i didnt know how to express myself properly, yeah even easy easy expressions i forgot clean clean already.
SUPER tempted to write in english.hahahah

paper 2 was better cos can copy from passage.
haha
so you see my answers like WAHH so long but its all from the passage.
xD

then i keep walking around telling people
A1 FOR CHINESE AH!
DO LAO SHI PROUD!
hahahaha.
when you know i know we all know the day jolyn gets A1 for chinese will be the day kyle patrick knows she exists.=D

so my next two papers are on the same day please pray for me
physics and bio like 4 hours later.
MMMMMMMM.

i think my school invigilators are funny.
and we all know kiewu hates one of them.
haha.
oh ya so paiseh
after the exam i took ryan's bag by mistake and was digging inside then i saw a black wallet and i was like
"EH MICHELLE YOU PUT INSIDE ONE IS IT"
then she said no.
and im like ehh
THEN I SAW ANOTHER GREEN BAG AT THE OTHER CORNER
and im like OOPS.
hahaha.
i really am so blur i cant stand it.

MEEKIA MEEKIA MEEKIA.
ahhahahh.
that's michelle by the way:D

OKIE i sleepy already
man i am such a pig
i ate two bowls of porridge for lunch.
WHEE.
okie okie the people at the basketball court outside of my house are really noisy.
dont they have to study.
oops
they're from primary school.
hahha.
byebye!

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Five Loaves and Two Fishes

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly, the day turned into night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunchbox, at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus, the kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out with the trust of a child, he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it allTo feed them all."

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give You every breath that I have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All You need is my "Amen"

So, take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You wil
lI surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in You, I trust in You

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

- Corrine May

Are you willing to give up your five loaves and two fish today?
Sometimes when I look around, at myself
I see so many people
I see so much potential
in myself, in each and every one of us to do something great for Him in His kingdom.
But do we truly surrender everything to Him?
And do we really put our trust in Him when we say we do?
it's time to stop running ahead of God,jo.

=D
cheena tmr,i know this is the dont know how many time i've said it.
I.WILL.NOT.FALL.ASLEEP.
I will attempt to write something that the teachers would understand.
=D
I PROMISE!!

goodnight everybody have a great night.

haha.kyle.haha.im high.haha.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

EH NO MORE MATHS AH NO MORE MATHS!!
i have added the emath pile of worksheets into my to-be-shredded pile.
i have decided not to contribute to global warming
and i have a weird fascination with shredding machine
im gonna dedicate a whole day to shredding papers after exams.
and noelle's gna help me.
ONE WHOLE DAY OF SHREDDING LEH HOW FUN!
hahahaha.
i see the pile getting higher and higher i very excited.
and i want to go to the 25th floor and fling the shreds down and scream its SNOWING.
but duh,i'll get caught for littering.hah

and to my dear michelle and cheryl
i love you two to bits but please let your mind rest alright!
something good's coming your way,i can feel it!:DD
emath was fine i guess.
can pass la.
i know kiewu wil give me the ==" face and say its not enough
but im rather happy.
haha.
NOW I GOTTA WORY ABT LITERATURE AHHH.

ok and i ordered two tees from guohao.
little ms giggles and i love ET
i hope there's still stock.
yeah yeah i know wads jolyn doing still buying stuff during O levels.
TEN DOLLARS ONE TEE LEH.
you know how cheap that is.
hahhahah.=DD
but i cant beat cecelia la.
she can go shopping buy ELEVEN tops.
PLUS four more.
and she still can say the most after Os dont shop lor.
HAHAHAA.
i think she'll go crazier than me after Os la.hahaha

wahhhh SHOPPING.
heyheyhey two more tees to wear yayyyy.

oh and
i trimmed my nails.
last night while studying physics
i looked at my nails and i REALLY COULDNT TAKE IT ALREADY
but i still cannt bear to cut super short so i just trimmed it to make myself better
yeah then went to talk to noelle and we talked and talked cos she couldnt sleep.
and then i went to use the massager.
WAH I LOVE UPAPA.
SO SHIOK.
then noelle was getting all irritated cos i kept making the shioookk ah sound
after i finished then mom's turn to use then she also make so much noise.
ya la i know michelle cheryl eudora noelle love my AHEM sound.
HAHAHAHA
okok.sidetrack.

AHH
tmr cheena.
im not worried
just dreading it.
i cant find my cheena dictionary.
wahrhrhrhaharr.
I feeel like bring Upapa with me tmr.
then i can massage my legs at the same time.
so SHIOK AHH.
hahahhaah.
ok im mad sorraye.

ok i think i shall go poop.
YES MICHELLE IM POOPING AGAIN YOU'VE GOT A PROBLEM?
HAHAHAHHAHHA.
eh why am i so high.
ahaha.
royal highness is high!
:D
ahaha.
high is a good thing anyway.
i think.
yeah.
hohohohohooh.

OKAY LA I CANT BELIEVE U READ ALLL THAT CRAP ALL THE WAY TO HERE.
IV'VE GOT ONE MORE CRAPPY THING TO SAY AND THAT'S KYLE'S HOT.
eehehhe.
okok
bye.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Monday, October 29, 2007

EMATH PAPER ONE OVER AHHH YAY.
it was..alright?
not that hard, not that easy.
made careless mistakes ahh.
i got 4, the answer was 44=(
and and after school michelle and i were screaming about the stupid stupid pie question.
AND OF COURSE,michelle's infamous shading booboo.
ok sorry, tmr we shall look at the question paper and analyse how michelle could have seen it wrongly.

SO yeah eng was alright tooo.
wrote about heroes.
and all that came to my mind was
the show,you know the show, heroes.
haha.
i wrote the usual stuff la.
then was being all humorous and then i decided i was being TOO humorous so i decided to stick with boring.

hmmm.
AHA AND KIEWU GOT A SHOCK TODAY!
you thought i was angry right right right
your expression was priceless;D
wah so now i know.
if i want you to shut up i just ROARRR like i did today
wahahaha.
ok sorry.

OH AND AH I THINK MRS TOH CONFIRM HUNDRED PERCENT CHOP THINKS IM AHEM ALR.
and its not even my fault.
=="
cecelia was talking abt her yummy cheese bread then proceeded to break one part to feed all of us.
THEN JUST AS SHE WAS PUTTING THE BREAD INTO MY MOUTH MRS TOH CAME AND SAID
" wahh early in the morning got people feed you ah"
and givve me that kind of smirk. you know smirk. HAHHH.
WAHHHHHHHH.
aiyarh,never mind. better than thinking i have a boyf anw.:D

ah and morning worship is goood for theeee soul.
:D
i was feeling really panicky abt today
and so did TAWG again.
and worshipped Him even though you know i was going to be late in meeting eudora.
but yeah.
it's in His presence that we find rest!:D

OH AND AIYOH REMIND ME.
CANNOT BRING METAL RULER.
haha.
i forgot behind got the funny stuff and i had to put it on the flooor.
but neh mind, setsquare saves the dayyy!!!

hurhurhurhur.

TMR IS THE LAST MATH PAPER IN MY LIFE.
ok not my life but you get what i mean.
WHOOPEEDOOO.

then after that i gotta worry abt humans.
especially lit.
my lit tutor wants to keel me i tell you.
and that is why, my dear friends, i am going against his wishes to pursue literature.

hmmmm.
ive been really busy chatting for the past dont know how many minutes i have forgotten what i wanted to blog about.

oh well.

get over it girl.
now's the time to focus on what really matters.
theres no space for gray issues.
time's up time out.
you're not in, you're out.
byebye.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Sunday, October 28, 2007

EMATH TMR AHHHH
sorry
i promised myself i wont get paranoid.
:D
even if i..
barely touched math.
no kick:D

ENG,also no kick.
even if haven written essays for veh veh long
but no kick.
i will lie on bed with "writing with a broken pencil is pointless" lying on my face so i can absorb the mojos.

pahpahpah
todays lit tuition was like crap yo.
he asked me questions and i couldnt answer.
we spent more time arguing.
before he came, we were arguing about hot girls.
then we started arguing about his bible lessons.
and he was trying to convince me he is better at the Bible than Macbeth.
hahahaha.
he might be joining TCA so if he does remind me.
try not to go PL on weekdays.
EEEEKKKK.
ok that was so mean.
hahaha.
OH,AND THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE MY MSN NICK AS SOMETHING THAT GOES
" Jolyn's Lit tutor is a genius" or sth to that extent..
you know i'm having tuition and it's his doing.
then when you see it switch back to
" Jolyn's tutor sucks"
then you know we just ended and i just typed that and he's standing behind me and glaring at me furiously but he cant do anything about it because it's my computer and i'm chasing him out of the house.
:D
btw, im not mean to all tutors.
come to think of it, IM ONLY MEAN TO HIM!
AHAHHAHHAHHAHA.
ok sorry.
but he started it=(
it kinda sucks having a genius for a tutor cos then you cant win every arguement.
the only way i can win is
1) being superbly sarcastic
2) putting on the "huh-what-did-you-say-but-save-it-i'm-not-interested-to-know-anyway face".
3) telling him i'll cut his pay.
HAHAAHHhHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
even then
all he has to say is
EDISON CHEN
and i get all red and i start laughing and i lose.
oh well.
thank goodness he doesnt know who kyle patrick is yet.
:DD

OK AHH TMR MORNING PAPERS..

cool and calm jo.
justchill. XD

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

wahahaha.
small group at church today was hilarious.
had to play this game where we had to ask two qns about ourselves,and let the others guess la.
and if they guess correctly then they get to draw on you.
i must be really transparent.
1) what is the ONE thing i desperately desperately want before prom?
2) who is my current hottest cutest celebrity crush?

actually, if you dont know the answer, i.. have nothing to say.
;)

wah then shumei and jeann were the best.
frantically waving their hands and screaming the answer.
haahha.
shumei even better
where do i stay and how many siblings do i have.
HAHA.

ahh, and joansie wrote her name really huge on my arm.
=( i had to scrub it off myself. and with jeann's help.
teehee.

anyway, service today really forced me to think about what i've been doing.
what i've been doing about God, and His plans for me.
i've been so over paranoid about what I'm going to do next time, worrying about HOW i'm going to do it that i've forgotten just how much God can do.
He provides, even when I dont ask Him to.
Since He already has a plan for me, then why should I even have to be scared.
I'm not relying on my own physical strength, but His.
It's through God that we can claim victory.
And it's time for a full surrender.
not just a half hearted one, not just a temporal one.
but a full sacrifice of our lives to Him so that He may prepare us for His work.

Lord I offer my days to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my life to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life.

and yeah, i really thank God for Sis Gwen, Sis Trina and Sis Serena who prayed for me and really affirmed me of God's love and what He's doing in my life.
(:

anyway. went for lunch.
ahaha.
everybody cant stand me and my jennys.
and i totally humiliated myself at KFC.
was singing some song with elo, then i imitated the person in the song and i went
RAWRRR!! louder than i intended and this dude from the next queue was like
=="
HAHAH. PAISEHH AHHH.
then elo said next time when i become fammooose she will sell all my unglam pics and videos and get rich.
=( how nice and OPPORTUNISTIC of her.
ahahah.

so yes on the train reuben decided to challenge me to a cold war.
and i concede defeat.
reuben's face is so funny i just cant keep a straight face ah.
i whacked him i slapped him i stepped on his toes..
until my hand hurt.
also no use.
not fun.
=x
ah then reuben said how come i can cold war with guys so well but cant cold war with him.
and i said
i dont cold war with guys.
and all of them went HAHHH!!
it's true what.
i ignore guys, i dont have cold war with them.
there's a difference okay.
but ahh, they still refuse to believe me.
poooh

ok so im home and im wishing my tutor wil hurry up hurry up come and have tuition so i can watch at least one hour of prince hours.
i know, math paper tmr.
no moood AHH!!
okok, sorry for breaking ur study mood byebye.

He holds my future in His hands

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Saturday, October 27, 2007

it kinda sucks when you think you're getting somewhere with someone
but that someone just doesn't get it.
you wish that person understood
you wish you understood that person

i dont understand how i could have gotten upset with someone twice in less than a hour.
it's nothing big, but it FEELS big.
something's changed, and you KNOW it.
i dont need you to take lessons on UNDERSTANDING me.
just listen.
and dont take everything i say or do as
" oh my goodness she's changing. she's growing up."
it's a fact.
and how am i going to let you know what i feel about everything if you have a comment for everything?
sometimes the things i tell you are just meant for ranting
not for you to use it against me.
and when i'm upset,
i think you should have known by now, to leave me alone.
i'll get over it in an hour or so.
you dont come and up and peer at my face WHEN you OBVIOUSLY know i'm going to start crying.
because hugging me when i'm crying will not make it okay.
just leave me alone and let me rethink everything.
then you wont be upset when i walk away and you think i'm being rebellious but no i just dont like to be upset in front of you.
it sucks, especially when somebody is your family.
yeah i know i will NEVER run away from home but

the people at home know less than half of what i'm thinking most of the time anyway.
probably all they see is a someone who's glued to her comp.
or obsessed with eating chips even though its bad for her health.
but it's okay.
i'm that, and more.

making sure there's nothing showing on the outside
something's dying on the inside
i'm still broken but i'm free
i'll see you on the flipside

over everything else you know i still love you.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Friday, October 26, 2007

HELLO DID U SEE THE CUTE GUY IN PREVIOUS POST!!
:D

ok sorry, obsessed jolyn will study after this post.
she will revise math.
and then attempt to read MACBETH for pleasure,and at the same time,comprehend what my tutor is saying about the political structure of Scotland.

SO let me talk about today's History paper.
it was awesome.
:D
i think the humanities so far have been rather nice to me.
thank you Lord
i hope the examiners will be nice people too.
i want to succeed suern's throne and get the voucher.:D
although that dream's abit farfetched,but if suern thinks i can, then YAY!
hahahaha.

next paper is english and emath.
i'm feeling paranoid for english.
i've heard so many sob stories in Queensway i cant even trust my own english anymore.
but have faith, all you english speaking bobos.(:
emath, i just go with the flow baby.hahaha.

okay let's talk about kyle.
yah i know kiewu wants me to shut up, but i cant.
the song's in my head.
ahhhhhh.
you know this is what happens when you dont see cute guys for a real long time,
you get crazy over one that comes by.
but he REALLY is cute.<3
i wish they went to my school la,bohoohoo.
i'll be the fengnuren in the crowd.haha.or i'll just faint.
WHHHHHOOOOOTSSSSSSSSSSSSs!
first you say you won't,
then you say you will!
AHHHHH.everytime kiewu hears this two sentences, he walks away.
=(

SHRIEKS!!
okok,sorry.
=x

oh yes my mom finally got the UPAPA fixed!
it's a nice green massager for the legs and the back.
especially now that i got that stupid leg achey feeling.
wah last night i was actually going to sleep.
then my mom took out the Upapa
and we spent the night trying out the massager.
so comfortable!
then my mom put her leg on it alr dont want to move
=(
hahahahha.
I LOVE LEG MASSAGERS AHH!!
i know i sound like old achey granny but whatever.

what else did i want to say huh.
i cant remember.
kyle must have messed up my brains.
KYLE!!
:D
<3

okok
I REALLY GO STUDY NOW.
AS SOON AS I LISTEN TO JENNY ONE LAST TIME.
byebye!

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me