oh man.i have NO idea where to start.okok.
i have to admit,i wasnt really looking forward to this camp cos i felt dry and lazy to do God's work..and also thot that this camp would be e same like any other.yeapps..so e first day i was pretty quiet and yarh.charmaine,chermaine,brandon,isaac,joshua,christopher,jessie,ubrina,rufus,broterence were in my grp.yeap.grp30.ZEALOUS!whee!haha.yepyep.i cant reeally remember what we played in e first dayy.yarpps.anws,service was by PDA to defuse and let God infuse.yeapp.and it made me realize that e hurt and anger i had for a certain someone,had not gone away although i had pushed it wayy back into my mind,making it seem like it was overr.and yup,God helped me get over it and to forgive him.so here i am,and on this one in a million chance if u actually come across this,just wanna let u know,yeap.it was painful.but God has taken away the pain and yeapps.im forgiving u.and i pray that you'll begin to realize that God is all u need.(:
yarpps. then we went back to our bunks..i was rooming with ubrina and jessie.they're like super funny la. what blobbies and stufff.hahaha.
second day was more fun. i mean,i was more hyper and stuff la.yeapps.the games at night were fun.and i think they were e cause of my sore throat.i was yelling non-stop!first game was waterbomb.gotta duck and stuff.dunno which army won.second game was violent.it was supposed to be non-violence..but whatever.haha.it was this soapy thingy..and we had to wear socks and tie our ankles together in pairs and snatch e opponent's socks.it was painful!and fun!chermaine did e attack and all i did was sit on the socks and try to pull anyone who came near me!it was scary la.so dark and i was blind cos i wasnt wearing my specs!yarpps.hahaha.yeapp.had a cut in my ankle after that.but YELLOW ARMY WON!=) we were the survivors! yupp.second game was this powder bomb thing. they had powder at e end of e stocking and we had to like pull it over our head and swing it and hit e opponent.i got out really fast!e stocking got entangled!chris was good la!he stayed in the court for so long!last game,one girl and one guy had to pair up and tie their wrists together.e girls had this post-it paper stuck on their backs and a rolled up newspaper.e girls had to hit e paper off their backs while the guys had to protect e girl.hahha.
anws,the third night was reaally powerful.although i wasnt around for worship cos i had this really bad tummyache,altar call was powerful.God sent many people to speak words of affirmation into my life and it was very encouraging.yeaps.that God would be there for me,He'll be the one to lead me,for He had chosen me as a leader and He would help me through it.and that even as i face challenges and mountains,God will set me upon Eagles Wings.yupps.i got slain twice and i had this vision of God telling me that "It doesnt matter how far u have strayed,for as long as u desire to draw close to me,I will draw close to you."and God actually reached out his hands and hugged me!I felt the warmth of His embrace and it was just really great to know i have a Daddy who cares.yupp.im telling u, the Hug of God IS REALLY WONDERFUL.=)
also,the last service,although i had sore throat,i was still able to serve la.haha.which was cool.and yeap,during altar call,God spoke to me abt being shy,thinking im inadequate and doubting Him and not daring to step out.He then told me,step out in faith as I have commanded you,for if I am with you,who will be against you?I have chosen u to be a leader in my kingdom.And you,my daughter will step out and lead my army!. It just felt so powerful.yeapps.
oh mann.of cos,there are MANY other things..but i just cant type them all out,ASK ME more if u want more! =)
yeaps..yesterday..at service,God spoke to me abt letting out my darkest sin..and yeah..it took ALOT of pushing,alot of crying,and hesitation,before i told eloise.and..yeapp..maybe it was the fear of being judged.i dunno.it's just so horrible that i allowed it to happen.anws,when elo prayed for me,i just felt the Lord's love upon me and i knew i wasnt alone.God had sent so many people to help me and I know im not inadequate or that God's love has lessened in any way.and yeap,elo,thanks for believing and encouraging me instead of u know,lookingdown on me like i thought everyone would.yupp.thank u for loving me,and taking that 99 steps.I thank God for YOU. and Jeann,yeap,i will tell u soon. and i know it's not gonna be easy,but im ready.and i just hope that you'll understand and love me just as before,just as i am.

infused with his love.