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Thursday, June 03, 2010

hahahaha
hahahaha

not being able to express properly in times when it is needed most is one of my weakness.

not being able to let go, is another.

being the bigger person is what ive been good at
and because of that,
its what i have become forever, by default.

GOD?

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

i have alot of things to gripe about today.

1) school librarian.
I am telling you, she hates me.
she appears wherever i go, SHE GIVES ME THE LOOOOK...okay like shes super rude and arrogant when she talks to me. and im like err i dont even wanna talk to u in the first place so dont even give me that tone when you do. she keeps wanting me to do sth wrong!! its like she cant believe i spent an entire day in the library without doing sth wrong and she doesnt feel shiok if she cant scold me U KNOW even when i was just checking out the journals she WAS STANDING BEHIND ME AND SCRUTINISING ME!!!! like what, im gna heck into the library borrowing system and heck it because it is my life's desire to always do that?
i bet if i start a petition to get her fired everyone in school will sign it lor. but im obviously not going to do that because that is a very mean thing to do....

2) not getting what i want
i think its the whole pms thing.
and not getting what i want during this period of time makes me feel like being a bitch.

I DONT HAVE ANY ICE CREAM AT HOME.. and i want ben and jerry's because there is a promotion for 2 pints now but i dont have any:( i need cookie affair and strawberry cheesecake badly. i think im actually salivating.=="
I also cannot watch glee at home. ONE HOUR... for ONE WEEk is all i ask for, but NOOOOOOOO people who watch serials cannot give up one episode.
=(

3) the dad.
i cannot stand the way he talks i cannot stand how hes such a baby i cannot stand how he is so selfish i cannot stand how he is insensitive i cannot stand him.

i cannot stand the entire house, staying in the house awake for more than 3 hours gives me a headache and the hugest urge to walk out of the door and enjoy life outside.
i force myself to sleep longer so that i dont have to be awake for too long at home but that just makes my headache worse.

i think i need a new house.
=="

i cant get to sleep but i want to.

just wanna go somewhere else.=(

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

honor your parents yeah.
the father makes it really really hard.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Saturday, May 22, 2010

pathetic.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

how amazing how God can turn a perfectly normal day into one of meaning.

i love how i can talk to a friend and the conversation turns from simply chatter to one about the future, about church and God without being awkward.

i've just been thinking so much recently.
should i quit my job, to actually engage myself in some social services where i can prepare myself for the work of God. but if i quit my job... then finance would be a problem.. a big big problem.

but thats just the least of it.

after my diploma, i may/may not want to stay in ech after all.
child psych? social services?

and then there's always the issue close to the heart.

in this world there are so many things
that need the change that only Your love can bring.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Sunday, May 02, 2010

hello

all through pri to sec sch 've been so mindful of people, what they think and blahblahblah.
never stood up for myself. never went up to someone to say things i wanted to say.

to me it has never been the quantity of time spent with people, but the quality.
who are my best friends?
they're not the ones i meet every week, neither are they the ones i talk to most often.
they're the ones who i meet up with like only a few times a year or less or even never.
they're the ones that everytime i walk away after meeting them, the conversation we had still stays with me.

so apologies to those who think that i do not care because i do not make the effort to talk.
or to meet.
that's the way i'm wired, and if it clashes with your love language, then what can i say right.

what i'm not going to apologise for is for the way you are trying to make me feel.
(you) is not directed to a specific one person.

i had hell in pri and sec sch.
and i had just about hell enough of it.

dont play games.

this year is a crucial year
in more ways than one.

i will not let things like that from the past to come back and destroy whatever i've built.

if i have done my part, i have done it.
the choice is all your's.

this is something i have been saying over and over again
if you want to share, then i'm all ears.
if you dont want to share, then i'm fine with that too.
if you simply want attention, im sorry to say that thats not what you'll get.

hmm a dozen people are going through my head as i type this and if you think you are one of them, know that i am not pointing a finger at you but simply to for once, make my feelings known.

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me

Thursday, April 29, 2010

hollywood singers and mainstream artistes involved in satanism.
scaryyyyyyy.=((

it's hard to believe,what i couldnt see
but you were always right beside me